Settlers and Reachers

She was not so beautiful yes but the way she looked at me was the way I looked at my love. She cares about me a lot and I can see that. But I can’t be with her for what she feels for me I feel for someone else. But today nearly brought me down to tears when I saw someone cared and loved me so much as I did to my love. The fact is everyone in this world has people chasing them but instead of getting with them we chase someone else who in turn does nothing but hurts and disappoints us.
But even after knowing the facts I cannot let go of the one I love like a pathetic little lump of shit that I am I will hold on in those miserable die in hopes. I feel so bad not being able to give myself up to her just proves I am just another man to walk this earth another assholes among assholes. And I am going to wait and wait for my love if she realizes and maybe comes to me I am going to show her what we can be together but if not I can bet you someday you will realize my worth and truly repent because I will be gone.

So fucking high!

Something about being “high” I don’t know what exactly it is but it somehow makes people feel relieved of their stress tensions and helps them relax. Now many people will take offence to what I say next but it’s so true “everyone needs to get high”. Not everyone uses drugs or alcohol some use Work, Sex, People, Friends, God, Food, Fresh air, Nature, Music etc but everyone needs intoxication to get them through the day.
I was at candies with a friend a friend who always gives me comfort and lets me know I am still sane. I was stressed and so was she both at different problems but yet something in common maybe the fact that we are both at the same stage of life. Anyway a few cigarette later things seemed to be so much better. The heat cooled down the music was so much better and the balloons in a party nearby also started dancing to the sound of the music.
As we continued to talk more senseless things with our heads falling down as they were so heavy! With everyone staring at us looking at us and fuck we cared.

Can't you see?

I don’t know if I can ever tell you what I really want to somewhere deep down I have lost my courage I can’t afford to mess up things again. But how can you be so blind by the world not to see what I see in you and in us, how is it that you never tell me we are meant to be. The way I talk about you, look at you, and always want to be with you does it never ring a bell in your head. The memories we have with each other don’t you remember? The times we have spent together?
Sometimes I feel time will pass by with me trying but when you finally learn, it will be long gone leaving behind memories and them alone only. So open your eyes and save us, make us unite.

Forever

“When the world walks out, you walk in” All of us in our lives come across people who have a huge impact on our lives, people who will be in our lives forever if not in person as faint memories tucked away safely somewhere deep inside our heads. “If you have one true friend you have way more than your share” I don’t think in number I have more friends than anyone in fact I think I might have less.
But among these few that I have they are so close to my heart there is nothing I wouldn’t do for them now these few are described by the word “Hommies”. A very special term indeed and for very special people. Now every one of these “Hommies” is a special person in their own ways. I don’t tell my Hommies very often about what their friendship means to me, most of the time I just take them for granted but I hope they know what they mean to me.
First one – He is probably the main one of them all now this guy is fourteen years of friendship in seventeen years of age. He is the one who is even responsible for the term we have all come to know as Hommies. Growing up would have been one boring journey without him by my side. GI.joe , Action man , Spiderman , Batman , Play station 1 , Play station 2 , Xbox 360 , Racing games , Smack down, Even the same type of music are only some of the many sweet memories. We even shared our friends anyone who knows me till today knows who I am talking about. We used to be really close but now he is miles away and differences between us somehow seem to be growing but I can’t even imagine how things would be if I ever lost him as a friend due to any circumstances. I know that things change, I know people change, but let’s hold on to this forever because I don’t know about you but your one of the only insane people in my life who makes me feel I am sane. I give a thought to all the really mean things we have done to each other so often not knowing what’s at risk and I think there is not a better time to tell you how I am sorry for those. We have had some crazy times together and nothing can change that fact and I tell you this it’s only the start........
“A friend can tell you things you don’t want to tell yourself”
Second one – 10^th Grade when I was made to sit with the 9^th graders it was the second day of school as she was not present on the first. There she was sitting alone was when I first saw her; It did not take us time to start talking. I remember it like it was yesterday. Talking to her or opening up was somehow never difficult, I remember calling her after school, in the evenings and nights. She was very fun to irritate but her anger was no joke and when she hits it hurts! In the process we shared more than our hard drives and we became Hommies. Today I am not that close to her I know very little of what goes on in her day to day life we don’t talk nearly as often as we used to. But I know that she still cares for me and I need you to know I do as well I would do anything for you.

“A simple friend thinks the friendship over when you have an argument. A real friend knows that it's not a friendship until after you've had a fight.”

Third one – This one I met on 28^th April 2009. I think it took a day for me to take her as a really good friend and soon we were in love. She has changed my life and me in so many ways. Things were amazing in the start it was the best time of my life. We were so in love we didn’t seem to care about anyone or anything coming in the middle. We were invincible to say the least. When I met her she was hurt and scared it never bothered me I knew I would never hurt anyone and I had no intentions to. And I really do mean when I say her eyes were the best drug ever I used to and still do “trip” on them whenever I got a chance. We made it through a lot together but something went wrong somewhere with me and the person I was mainly my ego got the better of me. I really did say and do some very mean things and trust me that was not me I don’t know what made me that way and I repent it every day for something went wrong and I lost her....But things somehow worked out we decided to give it a second shot trying to make it work. Make things how they were in the past and somewhere we both know it’s very difficult for it to happen but yet I somehow always thought the way things worked out with her it was fate and meant to be and so I will put in everything I have to make it work and who knows...I have always believed if you want something with a clean heart and are willing to work hard for it nothing in this world can stop you from having it...

“The golden moments in the stream of life rush past us and we see nothing but sand; the angels come to visit us, and we only know them when they are gone.”

Fourth one - The most interesting one of them all. The one who the blog was named after, and the one who inspires me in many different ways. “A friend in need is a friend indeed” – One of the best quotes ever. So true isn’t it, friends I have got almost 400 friends on facebook. But none like you, I know you will stick around in my ups and my downs in life, I know that you understand me well, The time I have spent with you in the past three years have now become some of the sweetest memories of my life. Remember the 23^rd ? Gandhi’s little test papers where that creepy guy never used to let me copy? Milesh’s where we used to talk shit on Ind vs Aus matches ? Firang? Do you remember all my wise man talks (During your clubbing extreme times? ) Coffee‘s before after during boards. ? . Shradha Bhatia you are one of the most important part of my life there are going to be tails written on us...I know one fact that your going to be there in my life forever the only one who is ever going to be more insecure about friends than I am :p
“ Life is such a fucking rollercoaster then it drops ! But what should I scream for? This is my theme park”
“No doubt deserved my enemies, but I don't believe I deserved my friends.”